February 10th 2015
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
In the previous months I’ve read a few suicide related books. They have all been so different and took different approaches about this sensitive topic. This one is now my favourite. Why? Because throughout the story you can notice how Aysel goes from a hopeless girl to someone who really wants to live. When she got a suicide partner she was ready to die but her interactions with Roman showed hr that there is more life to live. Both characters have a heart-breaking story, specially Roman, that lead them to want to end their life, but the author was able to show that it is possible to live through the darkness and try to accept how we are while portraying a character with depression and her struggles through the disease. Also, the characters were amazingly well written making the reading experience even better.
Overall, if you think that that this is a painfull thing to read you’re right, but it is also a book that shows that even behind all the darkness there is some hope. I can also say that I am excited to read more books of this author.
And you? Have you read this book? If so, what didi you think about it?